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i've been tumbling.

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be back in a few days



which is more sad?
- in 247 days i haven't had the occasion to be away from my laptop until now
- i'm still mad that i somehow screwed up the numbering

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truckin' along

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oh right

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"i want summer's sad songs behind me.
i want a laugh a minute, without fail."

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lo kol kach tov.

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well, that ruins the fun if you do it that way.

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somewhere along the way, i screwed up the numbers on these posts. i think i skipped 219. DAMNIT.

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OH REALLY

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i have more pairs of shoes right now than i've ever had before in my life. which is eight pairs. which isn't, you know, closets full, but boy do i feel self-indulgent.

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"They rode out along the fenceline and across the open pasture-land. The leather creaked in the morning cold. They pushed the horses into a lope. The lights fell away behind them. They rode out on the high prairie where they slowed the horses to a walk and the stars swarmed around them out of the blackness. They heard somewhere in that tenantless night a bell that tolled and ceased where no bell was and they rode out on the round dais of the earth which alone was dark and no light to it and which carried their figures and bore them up into the swarming stars so that they rode not under but among them and they rode at once jaunty and circumspect, like thieves newly loosed in that dark electric, like young thieves in a glowing orchard, loosely jacketed against the cold and ten thousand worlds for the choosing." -- Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses

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"you take the skyway, high above the busy little one-way. in my stupid hat and gloves, at night i lie awake, wonderin' if i'll sleep, wonderin' if we'll meet out in the street, to take the skyway. it don't move at all like a subway, it's got bums when it's cold like any other place, it's warm up inside. sittin' down and waitin' for a ride beneath the skyway. oh, then one day, i saw you walkin' down that little one-way, where, the place i'd catch my ride most everyday. there wasn't a damn thing i could do or say, up in the skyway."

the replacements, skyway

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"one pack of sweet 'n low, one pack of sugar"

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5 things that are making me feel good right now

1. berkeley-bound
2. choco ice cream
3. good mix of mountain-man-wail-y, jukebox-worthy, bust-a-movable music
4. mail
5. the circa 2007ish watercolor of a diner i found under my bed
   

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SUCKCESS

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one day, i'll post something besides the gube making funny faces. until then...

alright, now that that's done, i'm going to go watch more 'criminal minds' so i can stay up at night thinking about serial killers cutting my face off.

PS. today i ate a palmier with a mug of hot chocolate and it was heavenly. heavenly.

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i'm working on it, i swear.

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"california stars, they hang like grapes..."

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craft a little ditty.

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"i'm a modern girl, but i fold in half so easily
when i put myself in the picture of success."

remember that?

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baby birds in one of our windowboxes

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"and i know it's a lie, but i'll still give my love. hey, my heart's on the line for your hands to pluck off."

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IT WAS AMAZING

( via lucylarou )

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mere hours away from seeing el cohen in concert!

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oh wow

"i heard a rumor that my grandpa (who was 6 foot 5)
grew 5 inches his 23rd summer
but i also heard a rumor that he once punched out a tiger shark
so i always sort of wrote it off as gubler-lore"
matthew gray gubler

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things i want to eat right now but can't and won't

1. waffles
2. it's-it
3. a big milkshake
   

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"oh, everybody's dying just to get the disease."

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"i sang my songs, i told my lies,
to lie between your matchless thighs."

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"darling, i can stay awake all night
but i would make mistakes, alright
and the body asks so much."

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"nothing lasts forever, that's the way it's going to be. there's a great black wave in the middle of the sea."

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"Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo."

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watched the bison at golden gate park.

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"gimme a string bean, i'm a hungry man"

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"blackest heart you've ever seen, it's a dream,
it's a dream, it's a dream, it's a dream--"

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close up.

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i've been walking more often without my headphones on, just listening to the sounds. it's kind of nice.

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my pet fern is totally croakin'. WHAT WENT WRONG?

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honestly, every three months or so, i watch this movie, and it messes me up for a week.

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slept all day

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easily one of my favorite moments
in a movie, in a story, whichever.

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"after i dropped off the hitchhikers, i turned my van around, drove back to the store, and bought a bottle of whiskey. and then i went out into the desert and drank it. i wasn't used to drinking, so it made me sick. hoped it'd kill me, but it didn't. just made me real, real sick." ron franz c/o jon krakauer, into the wild

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things i want to do next week:

1. sincerely why levy, part ii
2. read the three books i bought today
3. bake
4. make up for the baking by walking
5. that sounds pretty reasonable, i think
   

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here's my face two days ago.

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my corner.

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i dreamed about you last night. i dream about you a lot now, actually, but it's almost like i never dream about you at all. it's really like i'm dreaming about someone else completely, because you never act like you did or ever would, and i don't really know you anymore. oh, i'm thinking about the needle, and i'm thinking about --

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"actually, they used footage of me from my high school swim team to draw prince eric."

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TERRIBLE

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the rough demo of "junk bond trader" has these different lyrics: "the athlete's laugh, the broken crutch, the first true love that failed because you felt too much."

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nikuda took this picture.

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motivation crisis!

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"where my life's sweet as it's slightly disappointingly just gliding softly by."

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anise drops

(via martha)
- 1.5 cups all-purpose flour
- 0.5 teaspoon baking powder
- 0.5 teaspoon coarse salt
- 3 large eggs
- 1.25 cups sugar
- 1 teaspoon anise extract

1. preheat oven to 350 degrees. sift together flour, baking powder, and salt into a medium bowl; set aside.
2. put eggs in the bowl of an electric mixer fitted with the whisk attachment. mix on medium speed until eggs are fluffy, about 3 minutes. gradually beat in the sugar until incorporated, about 3 minutes. mix in anise extract. reduce speed to low; mix in flour mixture. drop 1.75 inch rounds onto baking sheets lined with parchment paper, spacing 0.5 inch apart.
3. bake cookies, rotating sheets halfway through, until tops crack and cookies are very pale, 8 to 9 minutes. transfer to wire racks using a spatula; let cool. cookies can be stored in airtight containers at room temperature up to 3 days.

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between "i want to be your only friend (beware of me)"
and "why don't you write me anymore? what did you bind my heart's arms for?"
bonnie, you're great.

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"the more i feel myself, the more you're close to me.
though you can't hurt me now, i still fear destiny.
it don't have to be known someday, let's do it now
and not let someday get in the way."

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met this cat today, he was a little shy.

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"but then a strange fear gripped me and i just couldn't ask."

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"judging from picture books, apparently, heaven is a partly cloudy place. and if the sky opened up and they let you in and gave you a formal invitation, would you go? you could work from home."

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i think i dreamed about you last night. i say think because i can't remember it, but i woke up feeling strange, off-balance. you know, that weird feeling in the back of your mind that tells you that something happened but you don't know what.

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"aurora bori alice"

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i love this guy.
also "delware are you aware?"

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1. i bought tickets to see el cohen! (!!!!!)

2. baked these yesterday:

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slept all afternoon, had a weird dream where my cat turned into a person and tried to kill me.

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