child, you are a bone.

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2009-05-28T22:12:00.001-07:00

i've been tumbling.

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2009-05-21T19:12:00.000-07:00

be back in a few days

which is more sad?
- in 247 days i haven't had the occasion to be away from my laptop until now
- i'm still mad that i somehow screwed up the numbering

246

2009-05-20T21:47:00.000-07:00

truckin' along

245

2009-05-19T22:07:00.001-07:00

oh right

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2009-05-16T20:47:00.001-07:00

"i want summer's sad songs behind me.
i want a laugh a minute, without fail."

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2009-05-15T19:57:00.001-07:00

lo kol kach tov.

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2009-05-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

well, that ruins the fun if you do it that way.

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2009-05-12T21:27:00.000-07:00

somewhere along the way, i screwed up the numbers on these posts. i think i skipped 219. DAMNIT.

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2009-05-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

OH REALLY

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2009-05-08T19:59:00.001-07:00

i have more pairs of shoes right now than i've ever had before in my life. which is eight pairs. which isn't, you know, closets full, but boy do i feel self-indulgent.

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2009-05-07T20:23:00.000-07:00

"They rode out along the fenceline and across the open pasture-land. The leather creaked in the morning cold. They pushed the horses into a lope. The lights fell away behind them. They rode out on the high prairie where they slowed the horses to a walk and the stars swarmed around them out of the blackness. They heard somewhere in that tenantless night a bell that tolled and ceased where no bell was and they rode out on the round dais of the earth which alone was dark and no light to it and which carried their figures and bore them up into the swarming stars so that they rode not under but among them and they rode at once jaunty and circumspect, like thieves newly loosed in that dark electric, like young thieves in a glowing orchard, loosely jacketed against the cold and ten thousand worlds for the choosing." -- Cormac McCarthy, All the Pretty Horses

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2009-05-06T17:01:00.000-07:00

"you take the skyway, high above the busy little one-way. in my stupid hat and gloves, at night i lie awake, wonderin' if i'll sleep, wonderin' if we'll meet out in the street, to take the skyway. it don't move at all like a subway, it's got bums when it's cold like any other place, it's warm up inside. sittin' down and waitin' for a ride beneath the skyway. oh, then one day, i saw you walkin' down that little one-way, where, the place i'd catch my ride most everyday. there wasn't a damn thing i could do or say, up in the skyway."

the replacements, skyway

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228

2009-05-02T18:38:00.000-07:00

"one pack of sweet 'n low, one pack of sugar"

227

2009-05-01T18:18:00.000-07:00

5 things that are making me feel good right now

berkeley-bound
choco ice cream
good mix of mountain-man-wail-y, jukebox-worthy, bust-a-movable music
mail
the circa 2007ish watercolor of a diner i found under my bed

226

2009-04-30T17:40:00.000-07:00

SUCKCESS

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2009-04-29T18:22:00.000-07:00

one day, i'll post something besides the gube making funny faces. until then...

alright, now that that's done, i'm going to go watch more 'criminal minds' so i can stay up at night thinking about serial killers cutting my face off.

PS. today i ate a palmier with a mug of hot chocolate and it was heavenly. heavenly.

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2009-04-25T19:14:00.000-07:00

i'm working on it, i swear.

220

2009-04-24T21:22:00.000-07:00

"california stars, they hang like grapes..."

218

2009-04-23T19:49:00.002-07:00

craft a little ditty.

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216

2009-04-21T18:54:00.000-07:00

"i'm a modern girl, but i fold in half so easily
when i put myself in the picture of success."

remember that?

215

2009-04-20T17:52:00.000-07:00

baby birds in one of our windowboxes

214

2009-04-19T21:18:00.001-07:00

"and i know it's a lie, but i'll still give my love. hey, my heart's on the line for your hands to pluck off."

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2009-04-16T19:39:00.000-07:00

210

2009-04-15T15:17:00.000-07:00

209

2009-04-14T12:24:00.000-07:00

IT WAS AMAZING

( via lucylarou )

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2009-04-13T16:28:00.000-07:00

mere hours away from seeing el cohen in concert!

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2009-04-12T17:44:00.000-07:00

206

2009-04-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

oh wow

"i heard a rumor that my grandpa (who was 6 foot 5)
grew 5 inches his 23rd summer
but i also heard a rumor that he once punched out a tiger shark
so i always sort of wrote it off as gubler-lore"
matthew gray gubler

205

2009-04-10T17:04:00.000-07:00

things i want to eat right now but can't and won't

waffles
it's-it
a big milkshake

204

2009-04-09T17:06:00.000-07:00

"oh, everybody's dying just to get the disease."

203

2009-04-08T15:50:00.000-07:00

"i sang my songs, i told my lies,
to lie between your matchless thighs."

202

2009-04-07T16:12:00.000-07:00

"darling, i can stay awake all night
but i would make mistakes, alright
and the body asks so much."

201

2009-04-06T18:12:00.001-07:00

"nothing lasts forever, that's the way it's going to be. there's a great black wave in the middle of the sea."

200

2009-04-05T16:38:00.000-07:00

200?

"Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo."

199

2009-04-04T21:45:00.000-07:00

watched the bison at golden gate park.

198

2009-04-03T18:46:00.000-07:00

"gimme a string bean, i'm a hungry man"

197

2009-04-02T18:56:00.000-07:00

"blackest heart you've ever seen, it's a dream,
it's a dream, it's a dream, it's a dream--"

196

2009-04-01T16:41:00.001-07:00

close up.

195

2009-03-31T16:51:00.001-07:00

i've been walking more often without my headphones on, just listening to the sounds. it's kind of nice.

194

2009-03-30T16:20:00.000-07:00

my pet fern is totally croakin'. WHAT WENT WRONG?

193

2009-03-29T16:56:00.001-07:00

honestly, every three months or so, i watch this movie, and it messes me up for a week.

192

2009-03-28T20:20:00.001-07:00

slept all day

191

2009-03-27T17:40:00.000-07:00

easily one of my favorite moments
in a movie, in a story, whichever.

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2009-03-26T20:18:00.000-07:00

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2009-03-25T21:31:00.000-07:00

"after i dropped off the hitchhikers, i turned my van around, drove back to the store, and bought a bottle of whiskey. and then i went out into the desert and drank it. i wasn't used to drinking, so it made me sick. hoped it'd kill me, but it didn't. just made me real, real sick." ron franz c/o jon krakauer, into the wild

188

2009-03-24T19:10:00.000-07:00

things i want to do next week:

sincerely why levy, part ii
read the three books i bought today
bake
make up for the baking by walking
that sounds pretty reasonable, i think

187

2009-03-23T16:22:00.000-07:00

here's my face two days ago.

186

2009-03-22T19:36:00.000-07:00

my corner.

185

2009-03-21T12:19:00.001-07:00

i dreamed about you last night. i dream about you a lot now, actually, but it's almost like i never dream about you at all. it's really like i'm dreaming about someone else completely, because you never act like you did or ever would, and i don't really know you anymore. oh, i'm thinking about the needle, and i'm thinking about --

184

2009-03-20T18:59:00.001-07:00

"actually, they used footage of me from my high school swim team to draw prince eric."

183

2009-03-19T17:35:00.001-07:00

TERRIBLE

182

2009-03-18T18:31:00.000-07:00

the rough demo of "junk bond trader" has these different lyrics: "the athlete's laugh, the broken crutch, the first true love that failed because you felt too much."

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2009-03-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

nikuda took this picture.

179

2009-03-15T20:10:00.001-07:00

motivation crisis!

178

2009-03-14T16:38:00.000-07:00

"where my life's sweet as it's slightly disappointingly just gliding softly by."

177

2009-03-13T18:46:00.000-07:00

anise drops

(via martha)
- 1.5 cups all-purpose flour
- 0.5 teaspoon baking powder
- 0.5 teaspoon coarse salt
- 3 large eggs
- 1.25 cups sugar
- 1 teaspoon anise extract

1. preheat oven to 350 degrees. sift together flour, baking powder, and salt into a medium bowl; set aside.
2. put eggs in the bowl of an electric mixer fitted with the whisk attachment. mix on medium speed until eggs are fluffy, about 3 minutes. gradually beat in the sugar until incorporated, about 3 minutes. mix in anise extract. reduce speed to low; mix in flour mixture. drop 1.75 inch rounds onto baking sheets lined with parchment paper, spacing 0.5 inch apart.
3. bake cookies, rotating sheets halfway through, until tops crack and cookies are very pale, 8 to 9 minutes. transfer to wire racks using a spatula; let cool. cookies can be stored in airtight containers at room temperature up to 3 days.

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2009-03-10T18:31:00.000-07:00

between "i want to be your only friend (beware of me)"
and "why don't you write me anymore? what did you bind my heart's arms for?"
bonnie, you're great.

173

2009-03-09T16:34:00.000-07:00

"the more i feel myself, the more you're close to me.
though you can't hurt me now, i still fear destiny.
it don't have to be known someday, let's do it now
and not let someday get in the way."

172

2009-03-08T20:24:00.000-07:00

met this cat today, he was a little shy.

171

2009-03-07T19:53:00.000-08:00

"but then a strange fear gripped me and i just couldn't ask."

170

2009-03-06T21:02:00.000-08:00

"judging from picture books, apparently, heaven is a partly cloudy place. and if the sky opened up and they let you in and gave you a formal invitation, would you go? you could work from home."

169

2009-03-05T18:19:00.000-08:00

i think i dreamed about you last night. i say think because i can't remember it, but i woke up feeling strange, off-balance. you know, that weird feeling in the back of your mind that tells you that something happened but you don't know what.

168

2009-03-04T18:22:00.000-08:00

"aurora bori alice"

167

2009-03-03T16:29:00.001-08:00

i love this guy.
also "delware are you aware?"

166

2009-03-02T15:01:00.001-08:00

1. i bought tickets to see el cohen! (!!!!!)

2. baked these yesterday:

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2009-02-28T20:12:00.001-08:00

slept all afternoon, had a weird dream where my cat turned into a person and tried to kill me.

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2009-02-27T17:11:00.001-08:00

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2009-02-26T18:54:00.000-08:00

"we speak in the store, i'm a sensitive bore. you seem markedly more, and i'm oozing surprise. but it's late in the day and you're well on your way. what was golden went gray and i'm suddenly shy. and the gatherin' floozies afford to be choosy and all sneezing darkly in the dimming divide. and i have read the right books to interpret your looks. you were knocking me down with the palm of your eye. this was unlike the story it was written to be. i was riding its back when it used to ride me, and we were galloping manic to the mouth of the source. we were swallowing panic in the face of its force. and i am blue. i am blue and unwell, made me bolt like a horse. now it's done, watch it go. you've changed some, water runs from the snow. am i so dear? do i run rare? and you've changed some. peach, plum, pear." joanna newsom, peach plum pear.

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2009-02-23T16:51:00.001-08:00

"this summer i went swimming,
this summer i might have drowned
but i held my breath and i kicked my feet
and i moved my arms around, i moved my arms around.

this summer i swam in the ocean,
and i swam in a swimming pool,
salt my wounds, chlorine my eyes,
i'm a self-destructive fool, a self-destructive fool."

vetiver, by way of loudon wainwright iii

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2009-02-22T21:52:00.000-08:00

157

2009-02-21T17:55:00.001-08:00

awesome

156

2009-02-20T19:39:00.000-08:00

i've been saving this for a special occasion.

via kate beaton, just one among many amazing drawings.

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2009-02-19T17:06:00.001-08:00

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2009-02-18T21:29:00.000-08:00

153

2009-02-17T13:55:00.001-08:00

get me away from my camera

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2009-02-16T19:35:00.000-08:00

"heaven, i need a drug. her eyes are all but fixed upon her coffee cup, and looking down she tells you things are looking up, take another slug.

heaven, i had a dream, but now my life's a nightmare of efficiency. she rattles off the things she never got for free, gearing up to scream.

i remember when -- i had you and you had so much promise then. you promised me that you would never leave again, to be broken, you were made, adelaide."

this song has rocketed to the top of my most played list over the course of three days.

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2009-02-15T17:11:00.000-08:00

150

2009-02-14T14:14:00.001-08:00

148

2009-02-13T12:43:00.003-08:00

"i'll be back (beatles cover)" elliott smith

the "damnit, paul you were off. no, you were, john. no, you were, george. no, you were, john." at the end makes me want to cry, oh man. but oh god, oh man.

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2009-02-12T16:19:00.000-08:00